Advice . . .

Posted: April 17, 2014 in Images
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I have been dating this boy for the past 6 months and for this 19th, we were to celebrate our 6 months together. He lives 116Km away from me and 2 or 3 times he comes to see me and we keep in touch daily from the times we wake up and till the time we fall asleep. I’m super crazy in love with him and even if he won’t show the way I do, I kw he feels it too about me. But last Sunday something happened . . .
We were texting each other and around 11, he said that his sleepy (But he woke up from his evening nap at 8pm) But I was a bit upset coz usually before we sleep we talk but this time he did not call, so I called him as soon as he sent me the text but he did not answer. So I checked whatsapp and, he has been online at 11.13pm, so I called him again but no answer . . . so I kept on calling and calling. Would have given 30 to 40 missed calls. I was paranoid! I admit the way I reacted was wrong.

The next day, as usual, he sent his good morning msg, which followed by saying, “Why have you called me like crazy? What’s wrong with you?” But I didn’t reply and around 3pm he had msged asking “You there . .?” but I saw the msg late and replied around 4pm, which I never got a reply. In the evening, I sent him a msg saying that “I’m sorry” but no sounds from him. The next day, around 9am, I called him but he didn’t answer, the next call was around 10 and he was on call waiting then but he never returned my calls and the next time when I called him it was noon and he cut the line on me. Then, I sent him a text asking “If he was ok?” but no reply till today no contact. I know his live and well because he has been active on face book and whatsapp.

I don’t know what to do or think of the situation, if we are still a couple or if it has ended. What do I do?
Please help . . .


Posted: March 28, 2014 in Images
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To a faraway land you have drifted.
Difficulty I swallow the pain.
Between uncertainties I stood still,
As a result you drifted away.
My suspension took the best of us.
No more you and I.
As I suck up my heart ache,
I smile hard and strong,
Looking at the could have, should have, and would haves.
It’s too late now,
You’re gone.
Curled up and crying in the darkness,
I’m Sulking!
Looking at you, smiling bright and happy.
I lost the beautiful you.
Happiness has dawned in your life
But your happiness is pinching me to death.

Relationships hurt humans the most . . .

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banqt3The Present is the child of the Past and the parent of the Future

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Cracked Friendship

Posted: March 13, 2014 in Images
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107828dl4rsiffxjBetty and Lucy have been Best of Friends for more than 35 year. Both are successful in their own field of expertise and came from aristocrat families. Betty has been busy getting ready for her companies 25th anniversary. While she was at Lucy’s last Saturday she had asked one of her helpers to prepare her some caramel toffees for the celebrations and she agreed. Same evening she delivered all the necessary ingredients for the preparation of the toffees. But she forgot to mention Lucy about the preparation.
While returning from a fun Sunday outing, Betty wanted to stop at Lucy’s to pick the caramel toffees. Lucy came out to greet her and the helper gave the toffees to Betty and went off. But something was not right and Betty didn’t have a clue. Gleefully she went on and on about her Sunday and she asked Lucy if her mom was available so that she can remind her about the anniversary celebrations but Lucy didn’t seems to like the idea and suggested Betty to ring her up tomorrow and remind her. Since Lucy was in a bad mood, Betty though it must have been work stress. Hours passed and Betty’s phone began to ring and it was Lucy’s helper weeping and wailing. Apparently Lucy had screamed at her for making caramel toffees for Betty and had been nasty towards the helper the whole day. When Betty heard about what happened she felt upset and hurt about the fact that her best friend acted in such cruel way. Mostly she felt disappointed about the fact that she did not recognize that side of Lucy.
When Scott returned home from his business trip Betty poured her sadness out in tears. Scott understood situation and explained to Betty saying it’s mostly because of the ego and advised her to send a messaging saying she’s sorry for what happened and to forgive her best friend for the caused hurt. But Betty didn’t want to communicate with Lucy. But Scott knew, gradually Betty will find the heart to forgive Lucy but was not sure if the cracked friendship will mend.

“My opinion is that nobody can make men responsible for the violence against women. Women are responsible for it, “says the Speaker Chamal Rajapaksa, who is the eldest brother of the current Sri Lankan President at an event organized by the parliament to celebrate women’s day 2014.

I travel to work daily by public transport and have a 15-20 minute walk from home to the bus stop and bus stop to office. During my daily travel, I’ve been whistled at, groped, touched, leaned on, and stared at. It’s such torture to travel in situations like that but do I have a choice? And it’s so much of mental stress. For the perverts in my island, it doesn’t matter how decently you’ve dressed, they’ll continue with the sick things they do. This is disappointing. The people who are committed to protect you turn in to monsters and the police department itself is not safe place for a girl/ woman to plead for help. Trust me I’ve been there.

For some reason, Sri Lankan’s are afraid to speak up, including me.

Cheese Ball of my life

Posted: March 11, 2014 in Dating, Happy, Love
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07032014189Happiness and love blossomed once again in my heart when I wished the Cheese Ball of my life A Happy Birthday at 12:10am today and called him at 10am after one months of pure silence. Things between us have been on and off and I was reactant to give in because of my pride issues. But feelings for him kept on growing and growing and I kept on bottling them and stored it away. We hardly spoke nor met and he got busier with election campaign. I kept on getting disappointed because he could not make time for me and began to drift away gentle toward someone else who declared their love and attention towards me. I dated the other, for less than 3 months and he was very much in touch with me compared to Cheese Ball but Feelings towards him never changed. Feelings kept on growing and growing and I kept on bottling them and tossing them aside. But a thin tiny voice within me kept on saying, “the boy who spends time with you is not right” I disregarded at that time but eventually learnt that his not the one. In the midst of all scrambled emotions I let him go because he lied to me and didn’t give him a second chance.
Cheese Ball is a few years younger than I. Our age difference and the lack of time he gave me was the main reason why I pushed him away. Amidst all of that I continued to have feelings for him. When I’m with him or know that his in my life, I feel powerful and strong. Today, 11th March 2014 on the day of his birth, our relationship was reborn. When I called, he said he wants to see me, so I quickly ran to the best bakery and bough a cupcake and a card. We greeted each other with a warm hug and I gave him the cupcake and the card with much love.
I’ve decided to love him with patience, tolerance and more understanding. I’ll never know how the future will go but all I can do is hope for the best with the Cheese Ball if my life . . .

Lonely walk

Posted: March 7, 2014 in Depressed
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Depression . . .  something we all go through at one point.
For a while I have been living in that point.
Not having the nerve to face life’s difficult turns.
“Just take this life away. Take it all”
I yell looking at the clear morning sky.
As I yell “Take it all” warm tears starts to gush out from my eyes.
Weary of this lonely walk.
Wearied by been walked away, when will this end for me?

How often do we remember our dreams?
I have been dreaming of us together lately,
Remembered every second of it
Happiness is at least having you in my dreams.
It’s been awhile since we spoke.
Reason for our end remains a mystery.
You shut me down and I moved on.
But lately I’ve been dreaming on you.
February, I saw us together.
What does it mean? I still miss you.
And nothing has changed.
March, I dream of you
Saw us together.
Your bear hugs and your embrace
Much needed happiness.
I miss you and I want you more.
You are not coming back.
And I have to move on.
Happiness is at least having you in my dreams.

Cowardly Lion

Posted: March 3, 2014 in Attitude, Depressed
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I have had it all
Gone through life’s ups and downs
Partied hard
Prayed hard
Lived quite a glamorous life, but now I want out!
Family won’t understand.
Friends have abandoned me.
Even in the middle of a crowed I feel lonely.
Happiness seems so out of reach,
Every day someone hanged themselves,
Commits suicide or jumps off a tall building.
Where do they find the guts to do it?
Where does all the courage come from?
I feel as if I’m the cowardly lion from Oz.
All talk but no action.
There are times I feel stupid even thinking about ending my life.
And most of the time I wish I had the courage to do so.
Levels of depression keep on fluctuating.
Will taking my life take away the pain and all its misery?