High school days, I was running with the so-called 'it crowd'. I was glad that I somehow fitted in with the 'it girls' and kind of looked down upon the rest of the losers. I was not mean or bitchy but I did not want to be seen or make further connections except a simple … Continue reading Isolation is better than drama
These days, death is like honey to my ears. The idea of death is the only way the I can get a bit of bliss these days. My views and aspects towards life has become frail, and I’m not and won’t make any afford to make it stronger, I cannot be bothered. Yesterday, I signed … Continue reading That’s that?
What would you have done if you hear rumors about your husband sending out a picture of his privates and on top of that the reason for him to complete a 3-mile marathon was to impress someone else and that someone else was clearly not the wife AKA me. The source; from someone I trust. … Continue reading Cheating Marathon Runner
I want to take a bow and end this now and forever. I'm tired and have been tired for a very long time. I have struggled with low self-esteem and now I have been struggling with being unattractive. What hurts the most is, when you hear him say that how unattractive you are in his eyes. I … Continue reading When consumed in lies
when I was young, just like the other kids, I thought the world was mine. That it was pure and filled with love and honesty. As I was growing up, things began to change and incidents around me seemed to be more dramatic. Reality. It was hard for me to swallow. But I had no … Continue reading Struggles never end
I thought after getting married all my problems would have been sorted. I have the perfect man, his actually a dream come true and complete opposite of my ex but two years down the line, I hear something which I have dreaded to hear, especially about him. I'm not Sherlock Holmes anymore so I decided to … Continue reading What is missing
Tapping on my door, I'm distracted, confused and scared. The tapping becomes louder and louder. I cover my ears and shut my eyes real tight and fall on the floor. The floor is cold and pricky, I'm uncomfortable. The tapping continues and it makes me agitated even more now. "Let me be" I shout look … Continue reading Feelings and dealings
Bored. There's nothing good on tv. I'm on the laptop. The house is a mess. I have manged to keep the dirty laundry neatly in a corner. I need a change. A new look perhaps. Yes, that's what I need! A new look and to shed a few pounds. I'm fed up of hearing how … Continue reading Extra Pound
Curiosity got the best of me today and yes, they are a couple, out in the open. I'm stalking his facebook and comparing it with hers. When we last spoke he mentioned her, that they liked each other. I didn't go to question him any further about it, not sure it it was a rebound … Continue reading Moving on
My head aches. Feeling of fever just keeps coming on and off. I’m distressed. Inside my head I’m super busy. Scheming and plotting sounds fun but not today. I’m Just trying to find ways to get out of all these complicating in – law business. I take deep breaths. Count to 10 so that I can … Continue reading Where do I belong?